Voilà! I just bought the plane ticket to my new life. I will fly to Los Angeles on the first of March 2016. There, nothing neither one is waiting for me...
So did I not picked NYC, the city of my original dream where some friends would be so please to se me? In addition, work opportunities could certainly happen more easily. Ten years ago NYC would have be for sure my first choice, but things changed, I have changed, and I see the word differently as well as how I wish to live my life. My interests are no longer the same, the word career doesn't mean much to me anymore. I do not want to compete, be part of the rat race that takes us away from ourselves and others day after day submitting ourself to a system that has no heart.
Why did I picked Los Angeles? I have absolutely no idea, only the sun attracted me, and maybe this little star of love called Cuchira. Her dancing soul bewitchs, attracts me like a magnet and do not know why and how. Only my heart knows why, and I learnt to listen to it with trust. With patience, I may know why one day, or not.
How to explain all that? How to answer your questions which don't have much sens to me?
_ What are you going to do in US?
_ What is your plan?
_ Where will you live?
_ Where will you work?
_ Do you know people over there?
_ Where will you go, do you have a job waiting for you? etc
Your terrors screams make me dizzy and heartache, fearing in my turn not knowing be able to listen to life.
I stay muet too often, hiding preparations for my expeditions, knowing in advance that you won't even hear the answers of your own questions. But now it's time to clearly tell you that I'm off to Los Angeles to be lifted by the sun's energy which is vital to me and learn how to dance to awaken my soul, that I have hit for too long, and live all my dreams, including those I have not even imagined yet.
Today I know nothing of what my life will be. The possibilities are endless so why restrict by wanting to know everything and pretend we can control life?
I feel within me a mixture of fear and excitement. Could it be what's life about? Learn how to deal with emotions uprightly.